No One Is Coming

There are times when I need help, and it’s not always possible to get it right away. Maybe the people or resources I need aren’t available, or the person I want help from isn’t able or willing to provide it. Even though I understand that not everything can happen on my timeline, it still feels […]

What If I Don’t Enjoy the Journey?

Sometimes, self-help ideas can be irritating. If I’m not careful, they can bother me too. Statements like “It’s not the destination, it’s the journey” can be frustrating. Sometimes, the journey is really hard, and I don’t feel like being on it. I wonder what there is to like about the journey when it feels like […]

Wouldn’t It Be Nice

Sometimes, I don’t want to grow or learn. I just want to sit and stare at the ocean while my favorite foods magically appear. These moments can be unsettling. My mind starts judging, making me worry I’ve lost all my progress and will fall into a rut. But I have to catch myself and laugh; […]

Give Me a Sign

Change is challenging, especially when it’s hard to pinpoint exactly what to change or how to go about it. I’m experiencing multiple transitions right now: a new career, a new city, and the changes that come with being a 48-year-old female. While it can be exciting, I forget to find the thrill in the newness […]

Dear ChatGPT, What Do I Do Now?

This morning, I woke up feeling “off.” In a moment of introspection, I decided to ask ChatGPT for some guidance. Here’s the prompt I typed: “I’m 48 years old, I just left a 19-year career to start a new one that is moving really slow. I also moved out of my home city into a […]

What Are You Looking At?

Why look at my mistakes? It feels embarrassing and frustrating, and most likely, if I’m replaying a mistake, it’s because I didn’t get what I wanted or needed from my efforts. For example, maybe my goal was getting into better shape. If I made an effort and saw no results—or, even worse, ended up in […]

Living with Myself

Why am I constantly talking about and seeking ways to help myself and be a better person? Because I live with me all day, every day. When I’m not taking care of myself, it feels like I’m carrying a sick toddler—someone who is screaming, crying, and miserably in pain. It weighs on my day, making […]

Sacrifices for Adventure

This year, I spent over two months in Southeast Asia, including five weeks in Vietnam and four in Thailand. I enjoy staying in a new place for a few weeks to experience more than just tourist attractions. I like to get a feel for the local culture by exploring the streets and local life. Spending […]

Don’t Panic!

I love those videos where a toddler thinks they’re stuck but just needs to duck, move a small object, or stand up for a different perspective. It’s funny how it gets me emotional about how I handle my own issues. Like those kids, I have panicked when something changed or challenged me. I worried, felt […]

What Does “Finding Yourself” Mean?

What does finding yourself mean? It sounds made up. I’m right here. I can see myself. Who would I be looking for? Well, I have felt lost before. I’ve lost track of my goals, gotten lost in a social media scroll, or lost myself in a good book. Sometimes, I even feel like my actions […]