This is Not a Drill
This morning, I scheduled a writing session for myself. I found that writing in the morning, for me, is best. Mornings offer a fresh day, uninterrupted thoughts, and clear focus. But today’s session was not going well. I was having a hard time focusing on my research. When I found a good thought to write about, I started writing and got stumped right away. Every concept that I wanted to write about couldn’t find the words to express it.
I thought about taking a break and got mad. The negativity started flowing: I want pages of brilliance out of the time I gave this session. I am ruining my day by not starting it off great. Maybe I’m not a good writer or a writer at all.
I took a break because that’s what I’ve learned in my research about productivity and it’s what I talk about as one of the tools for moving forward. Although I know this in my mind, I still have to “pardon” myself. I have to interrupt these thoughts and step away even though it seems like the most counter-intuitive action.
It worked. I stepped away and even lay down. I talked to myself to remind myself that this doesn’t feel right but that might be because I don’t feel right at the moment. In that state of mind, I know I will be giving myself the wrong advice if I don’t reach for a tool—a tool that I’ve been practicing while I am in a better state of mind.
Now, when I’m spiraling with negativity, I know I can’t rely on my thoughts in that moment. I need to reach for my discipline. What did I say I would do the next time I don’t feel right? I try the exercise I’ve been practicing in this real scenario. By stepping away and using the tools I’ve developed, I find my way back to clarity and focus.
ACTION: Regularly practice the tools you need so that they become familiar when you need to reach for them. Take small breaks during your day, even if you don’t think you need them. Journal your thoughts consistently, not just when you’re in distress. This practice will help, like a fire drill, preparing you for when the real fire comes.
